So much to say, so little time…
I have been slacking on blogging as I have found a new addiction. It’s called the Mom Cave. It’s a Facebook group of Puerto Rican moms who are mostly in the Island but there are also a couple in NY, VA, FL, and other states. It has over 2,000 members and it was so exciting to even find some of my high school classmates in this group. I’m always on the page, looking at new post and commenting and enjoying some of the activities they do online like Photo Fridays. It’s just really exciting to have a group of people who understand you, not only going through motherhood, but also culturally; what we do, how we do it, how we talk. It’s the kind of forum where I really don’t have to “turn my Puerto Rican down!”. This is what my husband tells me every time I am on the phone speaking Spanish, he says “You’re getting loud, turn the Puerto Rican down!”. Any ways it’s just interesting how everything works. In my original mommy group I asked if there was someone from PR and I met her, and she added me to this other group. It really puts into perspective what Facebook is to me!!
Lent has begun, and every year I struggle to pick what I will give up as my sacrifice. Some of the sacrifices have included, cake, coffee, chocolate, and Facebook last year. This year I choose meat, not only it was a challenge as I despise vegetables, but I figured it would help me on my path to get healthy for baby #3. It has been very hard and the challenge continues, yet 4 pounds liter, I think I might continue this challenge pass Easter day. I have tried vegan hot dogs and veggie burgers, as well as vegan cheese, and mushroom as a dish. Not the greatest tasting food but totally edible, which makes it easier!
While my son continues in his recovery and the cancer is still away, we go every month for checkups, needless to say it has drown us emotionally, physically, and monetarily! Hospital bills galore up in this house! Every day is more bills, anesthesia, MRI, oncologist, urinalysis and so on… And of course every time we have issues getting him to pee, the last time we were there almost 5 hours trying to get him to pee! Any ways what I was getting at, was that while all this happens, husband and I finally went for an overdue physical, where they found that not only do I have: high sugar, low vitamin D and super high potassium levels I also have some worrisome depressions in my heart, which require me to have an Echo Stress Test tomorrow. And I’m pretty anxious about it. Heart disease runs in my family so it’s a pretty scary thought that something could be wrong with me and I just turned 30. It will definitely change plans around on expanding the family.
It’t crazy to think how much has happened since the beginning of the year. We were going to move and now we’re stuck here. I love our home but we are definitely outgrowing it. We are lacking space, and I just don’t want to put the TLC it needs.
This week I realized something super important in my life. I sometimes look at my friends profile pictures on Facebook, and I see pictures from all their travels, or from the beautiful houses, and amazing play areas, I look at their studio kid pictures and so on. It makes me sometimes sad, because I don’t have those experiences of traveling to different part of the World, or I don’t have a beautiful house or an incredible play area, and we have never taken a professional picture in our lives (except for wedding pictures), but there is something that I do have that is more valuable to me than all of that. My family is my world. Thinking about the relationship we have is amazing. Yes, we fight, but we are ALWAYS together! Through thick and thin we love each other and need each other so much, and I know that is something not every one has. I created this saying “I may not have the perfect body, or the perfect house, or the perfect family, but I am perfectly happy with my life because I am loved”. What this means to me is that nothing else matters because I have amazing people that love me, and I have been blessed twice with the most amazing gift of love God could have ever created, motherhood. I am thankful or everything I have and grateful that I can clear the fog and realize that the non-material things are the most valuable!
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